Saturday, September 25, 2010

well now that's over...

I'm over him. I see him and just miss being friends with him. That's all.

But now I'm confused by someone new. and someone old. Why is what your saying so hard to figure out? How do I know I can trust? Will I ever know the real motive? I wish I could. But maybe I don't want to. Sometimes ignorance really is bliss.
but he's just so fricken cute.

Monday, September 20, 2010

yessssssssssss :D

I did better than I expected on my very first AP history test. There were 40 questions and I got 15 wrong. Yes, its a failing grade, but most people fail the first test. Yes, even the 'smart' kids. I was pretty happy with myself. But I'm going to do better next time. I just want to keep getting better and better. That probably wont happen, but still, there's always hope. Right?

My English class is making me realize that I am a terrible essay writer. I need to just stick to creative writing. I just don't understand how I can be so bad at one and so good at the other. It doesn't make sense to me at all :P

I wish I had time to read books other than the AP text book. I could really go for some Harry Potter at the moment. AH! speaking of Harry Potter! I'm wearing a Hogwarts hoodie today :D it makes me happy

Friday, September 17, 2010


cast list came out this morning for drama. my character kisses his.
not at all.

but it slightly is...ish?

eh. I don't even know how I feel about it, other than I have wanted to puke ever since I found out.
I still want to puke.
what if I puke right when we have to kiss? that would suck. for both of us.

I've already hurt the poor kid once, so I can't back out of this too. But I so wish I could.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Right now I should be doing an essay for AP history. But I just don't feel like it. I read the chapter I was supposed to, I think that's enough for today.

I have a headache. and cramps. and a staring problem. I can't stop myself from staring at him. He died his hair and I kind of love it, even though I make fun of it. To cover up the fact that I love it. and him. but he's just too weird. but he's not. uhhhhhhhgh.

and I'm sick of listening to other people who don't listen to me.

I got an 82 on my summer reading essay for english and cried. I hate PMS. it makes me crazy. as you can tell from reading this. it makes no sense. I make no sense.

I just need someone to listen to me other than my mother.

Thursday, September 9, 2010


AP U.S. History will be the death of me. Over the past couple of days my teacher has been telling us all of the time restrictions, reading, and writing we'll have to put up with this year and its so overwhelming. Basically I'm going to be teaching myself everything. Awesome. I'm feeling a bit like Hermione Granger. I need a time turner to give myself more time to do it all. And to sleep. It's only been three days and I'm already exhausted.

On the bright side, I love my English teacher and what we're supposed to be doing this year. From most people I've heard that she's the best teacher in the school, so I'm pretty excited for her class every day. I have it last period so it gives me something to look forward to.

I have no classes with my two best friends ): it makes me really sad.

Saturday, September 4, 2010


I start my junior year of highschool this upcoming Tuesday. fml.