its...pink?!

Sooooo. I dyed streaks of my hair a purpley-pink color. Making that decision was really spur of the moment. Generally when I do something to my hair its a spontaneous decision that I dont spend much time thinking about. I like doing things whenever I feel like it. Sometimes I feel the need to randomly do something weird, just to add some interest. I get bored with my very boring and predictable life. Maybe next I'll get something pierced? Who knows.

Just as long as I dont lose my collar bones,
then I can feel ok about myself.


I want to take pictures like I used to. Just go outside and snap away at everything. It was fun.

I like how people think that I dont care what people think of me. Because I actually do. About some things.

fuck being sick ):
I just want to be able to breathe properly. Then I'd be alrightish.

Why am I never quite good enough? People have a tendancy of bringing me in, raising me up and then dropping me. I should be used to it by now. But lets not talk about it, I rather keep everything bottled up and then let it all out in a rush, all at once.

I wish I was good at talking. Maybe then things would be better. People are so hard to to talk to though, I feel like they're judging me or like they dont care. So I keep silent.





fuck everyone. except karli.

200 :O

This is my 200 post. Wow. Impressive? Sure.

So far 2011 has been pretty good. Nothing's different, I feel the same about everything, and I hope it stays just as nicely boring. I like boredom, its peaceful. I also like being alone; the silence is amazing.

so now its 2011

Holy shit I cant believe another year has gone by. Did it go by fast, or was it just me?
I dont really have anything to complain about, overall it was generally decent. Some parts were strange though.
Shall we have an overview? I feel like I should because most people probably are. And I want to.
Well.

It started off pretty depressing, with the whole Irvin thing. I dont enjoy looking back on that whole chapter of my life, so thats that. I'm happy that was over by March. March 5, 2010 to be exact.
After that I felt sweet relief, did a musical and made a new best friend.
Then I broke my prom dates heart, turned 16, and went to New York City and had the best time of my life.
The summer was alright, I spent my days doing nothing of real importance. I hung out with old friends and those ones from school. Oh yeah, and I went to the Harry Potter theme park. Another one of those best times of my life. Then at the end of the summer I had a very strange yet awesome time with the boy I may or not be in love with. That was cool I guess.
Once school started it was all pretty boring, aside from that one time I went to a party and made out with those guys. and that really hot 14 year old on Halloween...haaaa.
I found that 11th grade really isnt that difficult. And I also found out that I'm lazy as fuck. I think thats partially Claire's fault. I spend some part of every day with her and I'm fine with that. We keep each other sane and I think we saved each other. If we hadnt become best friends I dont know where I'd be. Probably still secretly hating everyone.
and now its 2011. I'm going to Italy in a month. HECK YES. I'm so excited. and then I guess we'll just have to see (: