Ugh.

I really shouldnt be complaining, but sometimes I just cant help myself. But then again one of the main reason's I have a blog is so that I can bitch and complain and not annoy anyone.

I'm so stressed out, and its all my own fault, which is the worst part. I dont feel like doing anything. I just want to do nothing and get good grades on everything. I just want to go to college and live in the city and be alone. People annoy the shit out of me.

Right now I'm supposed to be writing my research paper for English. I just don't want to do it though. Its not like its difficult, but just the thought of putting any effort into anything sounds like way too much. I just want to sit.

lalalalalaaa

Things are alright. No complaints.

I made my schedule for senior year today and I'm pretty content with it, minus the fact that I dont have room for AP Psycology. Thats a bummer, but I'll be ok. Maybe I'll take it in college. Ohhhhh, college. Thank God highschool is almost over.
I also made up all my gym classes and found out that I'm passing everything. Not as well as I'd like to, but I plan on making up for that next marking period. Now that I've talked to my guidance counceler at school I'm ready to start focusing on doing well. yes, I realize that I probably should have been doing that since the beginning of junior year, but for some odd reason I didnt. This is the only year I really havent been stressed out or worried or really concerned about doing all my work. Kind of screwed up. Whateverrrrrrr.


I'm sleeepy. G'night

bloggggging

Well I actually did end up having that snow day. Wooooooo! I spent half of it shoveling, though. I found muscles in my back that I've never used before. It was quite an adventure that made me really grumpy.

I'm very grumpy lately. It takes the littlest thing to put me in a terrible mood. Actually, its a combination of all the little things that happen during my day. But then something that really shouldn't bother me will happen and I become a raging bitch that hates everyone and everything. Its kind of becoming a problem. I think people are starting to hate me for it. My realization of this just makes me even angrier. Its a vicious cycle.

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I need to get my shit together. I'm kind of a mess. I want to go back to Italy where I just did whatever I wanted and looked at pretty things.

Its been snowing all day, a day after everything melts. Awesome? NO. Only if we get a snow day. But that probably wont happen

home sweet home...?

Italy was amazing, but still a little chaotic. But for the most part it was the greatest experience of my life. I'm so happy I went and got to see everything that I did.

My favorite cities were Venice, Florence, and Pisa because I thought they were the most beautiful and we all had to most fun there.
I'm pretty sick of guided tours, but the free afternoons that we had were amazing. Even the long bus rides werent bad because the country-side is so beautiful. The grass is a different color and all the trees seem to grow sideways instead of up.

I dont even really know how to describe everything we did. So I dont think I will. but it was amazing and I would do it all again in a heart beat.


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Right now I'm still jetlagged and it sucks. I cant decide if I'm glad to be home or not either. I missed being home, but now that I am I wish I wasnt. I miss being on the go and now that I'm not I dont know what to do with myself.

Italy

I'm leaving today :D I'm so excited and nervous but excited. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

downs and ups

My life is so full of ups and downs lately. One day I'll be really angry and feeling shitty and the next I'll be fine and dandy. Its very confusing. I need to find a happy/content medium. Maybe going to Italy will do this for me? I hope so.