hmmmmmmmmm?

What does one do when the boy who asked them to prom is completely in love with them? But they don't like him as more than a really good friend? But possibly might like him like that if he dressed differently and got a better haircut? (And does that make them a bad person?)

I'm so confused.
But I'm excited for prom (: I'm going to look beautiful...I hope.

I hate the feeling when you want something, but can't have it. Because then you just want it that much more. It pretty much sucks. Oh well. Life goes on!

On to New York City (:
I'm going there with my mom for my sweet 16 in May and am beyond excited. We've already booked our rooms (we're staying at the Affina, which is right across the street from Penn Station.) We're getting the train tickets Friday. How New York is that? Taking the train to the city. I cannot wait (:

On the getting a new camera (:
I probably wont decide what kind I'm getting until I'm looking at it in person, but I know that I'm either getting a Nikon or another Canon. Yayyy (:

and now on to rehersal (:

): R.I.P. camera. I will miss you ):

Soooooo, guess who dropped their camera and broke the screen today? I did! Go me! I'M SO PISSED!!!!!! ergh. ): and of course, I wasn't supposed to be getting a new camera until Christmas. ): what am I going to do???

These are the last pictures that I took with my camera. Today started off as a really good day; I'm wearing one of my favorite dresses, it's an amazing 60 degrees out, some of our flowers are up, and I'm just generally happy. But on the way back into the house after shooting these, lazy me didn't feel like taking the camera off the top of the tri-pod and BOOM! it falls off and wrecks the screen. ):

New. Happy. (now put your hands up!)

I've broken up with Irvin. He was pretty much a sucky boyfriend, to be honest. I'm so glad that I ended it because literally the more I saw him the less I liked him. So now I'm free to be all aloney on my owney (:
I never realized how much I like being single. I don't have to worry about pleasing anyone, I can hang out with whoever I want/whenever, and I don't have to worry about my parents freaking out if they ever found out.
I'm so happy that I broke up with him that I frequently have the urge to start singing "All the Single Ladies" by Beyonce :D hahaaaaa.

-skips off into the sunset. all aloney on her owney. and loving it.-

New York City. The City I Love and Belong In.

Last Monday I went to the great city of New York for the very first time. Hearing all the stories about it made me fall in love before setting eyes on it for myself, but when I actually did see it, I was even more madly in love. I feel like I belong there. I don't know how to explain it, it's just a feeling. And what an amazing feeling it is.

Seeing as the whole trip was a "theatre" trip, we didn't really do anything that you would think you would do on your first time in NYC. We didn't see the Statue of Liberty, go on the subway, take a taxi, go on Wall St., or see the site of 9/11. But we did see 5th Ave, Times Square, Blue Man Group off Broadway, West Side Story on Broadway, the HighLine, pier 54, the MET, Central Park, Shakespeare in the Park, Chelsea Market, China Town (which I did not like, AT ALL.), the Meat-packing District, the Garment District, and we did lots of driving around and seeing all the neighborhoods. I wish that we'd seen most of the neighborhoods outside of the bus though.
All in all, it was a great trip that is actually kind of a blur. Pictures help though (: I took almost 800 in three days. Don't worry, I wont post them all...


the look on my face as I saw the skyline approaching

Wicked Dieting

I've decided that I'm going on a diet. Not only do I want to look better, but I want to feel better and be more confident. The food that I usually eat (I eat a Quaker chewy granola bar for breakfast every morning, eat school pizza for lunch everyday, and usually have some sort of white pasta or chicken for dinner everynight) makes me feel really sluggish and gross, and I'm (literally) sick of it! I want to feel good on the inside and out! Now I just need to the willpower/willingness of my mom to buy the right food...

Whats been stopping me for so long about starting a diet and getting healthy is really not knowing what to eat. My idea of "healthy" is a an apple every once in a while and maybe some carrots thrown in with dinner. Not very healthy at all, I know. I really want to work on changing that an educating myself on whats best to eat. You're probably going to think its silly, but Glamour magazine has some really good tips on their website for healthy foods! I'm going to take their advice for every meal and snack. Over the past week I've made up a list of all the foods I think will be healthy, still taste good, and not be too overly expensive.

Breakfasts:
- Homemade oatmeal with cinnamon or instant oatmeal with apples and cinnamon
- A glass of orange(with vitamin C and D) or cranapple juice
- An apple or an orange

Lunches: (I'm going to start brining my own lunch)
- A turkey sandwich on whole grain bread with lettuce, a tomato slice, and mustard
- Garlic hummus on crackers
- Low sodium chicken noodle soup
- String cheese
- Strawberries, blueberries, and peaches

Dinners:
- Grilled, baked, or rotisery chicken
- Whole grain pasta (with whatever we would normally have with pasta)
- Scallop stirfry with lemon juice, veggies, and whole grain pasta
- Shrimp stirfry with lemon juice, veggies, and whole grain pasta

Snacks: (I usually have something small when I get home from school)
- Sliced apples with peanut butter
- A low fat granola bar
- Frozen yogurt
- Mixed nuts with sea salt
- Dark chocolate

I think all of this is do-able. Well, I hope so. I really want to stop feeling gross and start feeling and looking amazing! Wish me luck.

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Tomorrow night I'm seeing the Broadway musical Wicked! I'M BEYOND EXCITED! :D The cast is touring the country and performing in cities and, yay!, they're coming to my city! I know a lot of people that have already gone to see it and they say that it's spectacular. :D ! expect lots of pictures (especially of my outfit!)

Have a good weekend loves (:

Spring Fever

I'm in a winter slump. I've gotten to that point in the season when yes, the snow is somewhat pretty, but I wish it would just go away and be replaced by the sweet flowers and green grass of Spring. I want to be able to wear flowy skirts and fun dresses without tights, transition from dark-wash jeans into a lighter pair, put the Uggs back into their box and slip into a pair of strappy sandals, and have no fear when wearing shoes without a lot of tread on them.
The Spring trends are another thing I'm really looking forward to. Basic white tee's, cool floral prints, pastel hues, fun ruffles, and so much more! Ahhhh, I cannot wait! :D

Do you ever have those certain things that you just become obsessed with? Lately I've had several! Take for example...
1) Vampire Weekend. LOVE THEIR MUSIC! It's so fun, odd, cool, different! As I type this Cousins is playing (:


2) Rose Salve. Moisturizes, smells amazing, and is a pretty color.


3) Curly hair. I haven't quite figured out how to wield a curling iron yet, but I'm working on it...

4) Facebook. Yes, I have taken up facebook stalking all of my 'friends' lol don't judge me! I get REALLY bored sometimes.

5) Art. Art class is my favorite class of the day! I love creating, seeing what other people create, and having the freedom to make anything I want. Like drying out slices of bread, splatter painting them, and them gluing them to yellow foam board in an Andy Warhol-esque fashion. x]



Last night I went to see The Lovely Bones with my friend Carley. We got to the mall a few hours before the movie started so we tried on a few prom dresses in Lord & Taylor. hahhaha


I really liked this movie, even though it was sad (and made me cry a few times). I liked the tones of everything, the acting (loooooove Stanley Tucci and Saoirse Ronan), the cute guy that played Susie's love interest, and the fact that Susie used a film camera (: However, I didn't like how Mr. Harvey ended up dieing! Could have been wayyy better. Oh well, everything can't be perfect.